I’m feeling doors shut all around me - doors to past relationships, doors to former options, doors to old worlds that used to feel so comfortable.
All the doors needed to shut, but no new doors have opened up. I can’t even see the doors yet.
So I’m in an empty hallway.
The question is always, Do I transform the hallway or just keep walking it?
I have a lot of tools for empty hallways - flood it with light, create new worlds, call in the dragons, call in Mother Mary, dive into the dark pits that suddenly yawn beneath my feet, re-code the entire structure.
But maybe I’m just supposed to be in the hallway.
Maybe I’m just supposed to be with myself.
Maybe I’m just supposed to breath in the uncertainty without trying to change it.
Maybe I’m just supposed to trust that the part of me that can see more than I consciously understand in this moment knows exactly what it’s doing and I should just allow everything to unfold.
But I was definitely supposed to get a breakfast sandwich with bacon, so I’m glad I did that. Empty hallways are easier to face on a full stomach.