I went to see a guru a few weeks ago, because he was appearing across the road from my boyfriend's house and when a guru appears on your virtual doorstep, you might as well say hello. So we crossed the street to watch an Indian spiritual leader in action.
We sat with hundreds of followers under a gigantic tent and listened as people asked him questions for two hours.
One woman got up, crying, because she felt she was failing spiritually because she always fell asleep in meditation.
The guru was very kind and had the same reaction I did which was, Let yourself fall asleep! Don't worry about it!
But what broke my heart was how harshly we judge ourselves around being "spiritual." And how many hoops we make ourselves jump through before we consider ourselves enough in the eyes of god.
We are always, always, always enough in the eyes of god. Or spirit. Or the universe. Or the flying spaghetti monster. Whatever.
The phrase "practical spirituality" keeps running through my head. Not every human is cut out for a daily hour of meditation. But anyone can use stop lights as their moment to pause. Any one can make doing the dishes a meditative practice. We can live our lives as a meditation.
I do this approximately 15% of the time and I teach this stuff, so I'm not saying it's easy.
But the point isn't to be perfect, because we ain't none of us perfect.
The point is to continue grounding into a practice, whatever that practice is. Your practice can be dancing, walking, meditating at stop lights, petting your dog, pulling weeds in your garden. Whatever returns you to you.
Devote ourselves to ourselves, and allow that to be enough.